One Fine Evening

You left for work for this morning as scheduled
Same time everyday
I took off work so i could set up a surprise for you
I planned on making you a nice dinner and proposing to you
It took several hours to get everything right but i wanted it to be perfect
I made all your favorite foods
Got the best wine i could find
As i was putting the finishing touches on dinner i decided to call you to see where you were
When you picked up...i heard...moaning....and what sounded like a man's voice in the background
Then i hear faintly...."i love you"
I yell your name but you don't answer
I think to myself...."she's cheating on me!!!"
AND she loves someone else!
I become enraged
I tear up the kitchen!
I throw the ring away....i didn't care about how much i paid for it!
I burn all our pictures
Then i think of a way i can get revenge
I call up one of my ex's and tell her i wanted her to come over
She agrees
She comes over in only 15 minutes
I guess she missed me
I can't get the vision of you having sex with another man out of my mind
I have sex with my ex in the living room hoping you would come home and catch us in the action so u can feel my pain
The house phone rings but i don't answer....i was in the moment
I finish my session with my ex and you STILL haven't showed up
I check my cellphone....nothing
Then i remember the house phone rung
I check it and the call was from the hospital
I start to call them back but there was a knock at the door....i run to it!
But it wasn't you...it was a police officer....with terrible news
"Sir....your girlfriend was in a terrible car accident tonight.....and......she didn't make it"
My heart drops to my feet....i cant even speak
I gather myself and say "but....i just heard her....she was with some man.....i called her"
The officer explains..."well i was with her when you called, the man you heard was most likely me....she was in terrible pain and could barely speak but she muscled up enough strength to say I LOVE YOU in the phone to you.....they were her last words...im sorry for your loss"
He leaves
I break down
Tears run out of my face like a faucet
I can't believe i thought u would do a thing like that to me
We had such big plans....how can i live without my heart?
You loved me even in your last seconds of life
And my last favor to you....was cheating.....and burning all our memories
I didn't deserve you
I don't deserve to live
I go to the bedroom and find one portrait i didn't burn
I hold it close to my chest
I reach in my drawer and grab my gun
I curse myself for everything i have done
And thank the lord for giving me the years i spent with you
You were the best thing to ever happen to me....
I cock the gun...put it to my head and dedicate my last words to you and say....
"........I LOVE YOU TOO"
*POW*

The One That Got Away

I used to see you everyday on campus

I used to think....."i wonder if she's taken"

I used to wanna meet you

I used to wonder what kind of person you were

Then one day.....we met

I used to think about you all the time

I used to love our time together

I used to hate our time apart

I used to read our text conversations over and over

I used to smile when i saw it was you calling

I used to look forward to the day we could be together

Then one day things changed

I used to wonder why u hadn't texted me

I used to wonder why you didn't call as often

I used to wonder why you seemed to dodge me when i tried to come chill

I used to wonder why the vibe changed

I used to get angry when you didn't respond to me

Then one day you were in a relationship

I used to be pissed off

I used to wanna come take you away

I used to wanna tell you how i really felt about it

I used to think there was something wrong with ME

Then one day you responded

You said i took too long to make a move

You said you were waiting on me to take it to the next level

I used to think slow and easy was the way to go

I used to think you would wait for me

but i guess not

Im not angry

I still wish you the best of luck

I hope you are always happy

And i still see you everyday

And i think.........THERE GOES THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY

Intoxicated Dreams

Sober thoughts and intoxicated dreams

Aint nothin but a lil bit of crack to a dope fiend

Follow your heart they say

But your heart can sometimes lead you the wrong way

Follow your brain and your logic

U cant hate on the truth and you can never stop it

I see YOU when its just me and you

But when you with your friends i dont recognize the girl i knew

Who is this person?

Where did you come from?

Do you black widow spider niggas for fun?

Everytime i try to glue my heart back together you come and knock it out of my hands

Why?

Was me being happy never part of god's plans?

I just want to live life and get mine

And errbody else out to put a nigga down or take his shine

Im just coolin....im loyal to those who are loyal to me

But thru my intoxicated eyes its only demons i see

Fakeness is a disease and i got the vaccine

If you aint got it dont try to be on the team

Tryin to find my path

But what i like to do plus money dont make math

So......am i supposed to do somethin i hate to do the rest of my life?

Are the employees supposed to look at me stupid when i ask em for the price?

Is it when im rich the only time ppl will act nice?

Just because they want somethin from me?

I once was lost but now i see

Everything thats wrong wit the picture i painted

So i start a new one and maybe new ppl will get acquainted

Hoping to make a new....improved picture

When YOU'RE 100 seems like no one wants to deal witcha

Followin the crowd gets you no where but in the middle

I chose my own path ever since a nigga was little

Did what i wanted and followed my own guidelines

So when niggas said i was different i stood behind mines !

Yeah thats me.....Kevin Jones

You aint gotta be on what im on

Cuz different doesnt equal wrong

I ride dolo

Niggas only go for self so i gotta go solo

Just tryna make a cameo...in one of these girls videos

So maybe they'll notice a nigga

Show some love and dont act bogus on a nigga

Cuz that seems to be the norm

I must not have put the right name on my "I Like You" form

Let me know what else im supposed to do.....

If u dont know then....i guess i'll have to be threw

Im just writin bullshit what does any of this even mean?

But its whatever.......

Just sober thoughts during an intoxicated dream